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look at the words you say 

“deal with it” “i can’t be bothered to” “no mood to argue” 

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these words I’ve been hearing over the past 3 months 

I am unhappy. and you are too. but we still try 

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why?     is there still love? or is it lust? 

 You said once in a pique that “unhappy times surpasses the good times”. are we chained by our habits? Am i to you not more than a habit? are you to me not more than a habit? 

but 

all i wanted was 

to have someone tell me he loved me 

to be unloved by my boyfriend, family and friends…. yeah i must be a very horrible person 

if I were you, i’d dislike me too. 

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises.

And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans, and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to leave you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure; You really are strong, you really do have worth.

And you learn, and you learn…
With every goodbye you learn.

—Veronica A. Shoffstall (via pagmamahal)

(via smittenpixels)

I want to leave, only so that you’ll make me stay.